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please make some bad art

8/7/2025

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Your First Draft is Supposed to Be Crap.
(That’s kinda the point.)

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I first heard the phrase “shitty first draft” in the book Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott, and like a lot of sticky little truths, it lodged itself into my brain and started poking at my noodle, shifting things. The way I made art changed. The way I wrote changed. In a big way, it shifted how I start, basically, ANYTHING.

I don’t usually love phrases like “mindset shift", (they feel like the emotional equivalent of green juice and hustle culture) but in this case? That’s exactly what it was. Saying to myself “this is just a shitty first draft” is like flipping the big red “permission” switch in my brain. Suddenly it doesn’t matter if what I make is brilliant. It doesn’t even have to be good. It just has to exist. Move from my brain to the page, the canvas, the world. That’s the point.  Good enough and done, existing in the world, is better than perfect and only in your head.  That "shitty first draft" is the stepping stone that gets us moving in some small way.

There’s no perfection required in a first draft. No pressure to nail it. No need for polish or genius. It’s just the first step. And maybe the second one’s a little wobbly too. When babies start off on their first lurching steps, we don't tell them they are terrible at walking when they don't immediately master it. Can you imagine if we said to a learning-to-walk baby what we have said to ourselves when diving into a creative project?  "hey you, baby! you really think you're gonna walk somewhere? you're terrible. don't even bother. you'll never figure it out." (Wow, that inner critic can be a REAL jerk sometimes.  Substitute "walking" with "art'ing" and see if it sounds familiar.)

We forget this sometimes: everybody starts somewhere. All those artists with work hanging in galleries? They’ve got piles and piles of “bad” art somewhere. Practice pages. Experiments. Weird little creatures made out of buttons and glue and late-night impulse. We only see the highlights. But the truth is, we get to the good stuff in spite of (and often because of) the mess.  Sometimes the "mess" is actually what nourishes the final piece. My dahlias love some good, rotting, messy compost.  Our art, our writing - it all gets better when we embrace the mess, allow it to teach us and even nourish us.

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I have what I call my “upstairs art” – typically smaller creative projects that I can do in bed or from the couch.  Lately it's been little slow-stitched, improv collages on thrifted wool squares. I try not to plan ahead.  Just reach into the scrap bin for the next colorful bit that calls to me. It reminds me of something Orly Avineri said in a class I took once. She encouraged us to make choices: “Like a bird building a nest.” Not all planned out. Just bit by bit, the sparkles that catch our eye, the color that begs to be next. That line hung on my studio wall for a while, and I come back to the idea often.
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This is how I've been stitching these wee fabric pieces, but it's also how we piece together a life. We can be paralyzed by the planning and choices and the idea that we are somehow going to get it wrong.  We can be frozen in the how-do-I-begin?? But what if we just focus on the next thing?  We fly out into the world, pick up the next thing that looks interesting, or useful, and bring it back. Stitch it into the fabric of our life. Don’t overthink it. Just keep building. The nest begins to take shape.

Every stitch, every scribble, every weird gluey collage is its own little draft. A layer. A beginning. Every person we meet, class we take, book we read, connection we remember - these build a life layer by layer. I remind people in my groups all the time: anything we can do on the page, we can practice in our lives. So if you can get okay with the messy, honest first try in your journal, it might just get a little easier to take that next step in real life—even when you have no clue where it’s leading. Maybe something you try doesn't work this time, but you learn something new and try again later. But that learning only happens when we are brave enough to do *something*, anything.

Picture*This is not an actual photo of me in a beret, this is just a tribute.
(Side note: after decades of trying, I finally taught myself how to make a French knot! Apparently all it took was a beret and pretending I was in a Parisian textile rebellion. Viva la embroidery!)

​Maybe right now, you’re in the “scribbling-on-napkins” phase of a dream or a transition or a wildly new version of yourself. You don’t know what the "Mona Lisa" of your life is going to be yet—and that’s okay. You’re building a nest. You’re trying some stitches. You’re showing up, draft after draft.


Hey, if that journal page looks terrible?  Paint over it. Glue something on it. Scribble.  And if today was kind of a trash fire? Call it a shitty first draft. Go to bed. Try again tomorrow. That’s how creativity works. That’s how life works.

You have a beautiful imagination, and an infinite capacity for creativity (don't believe it? fight me.), PLEASE, make some crap art.  Write some terrible poetry. Create journal pages that have layers and layers of mess, and mistakes, and color and texture and JOY.....and maybe create a life to match.


P.S. (do we do a P.S. on blog posts??? oh well, it's happening) Back in 2022, I talked with my good friend Meg about perfectionism, and why it is so important to have spaces where we can practice NOT being perfect.  You can listen to that podcast episode here.

Come make mini-journals with me this month!

Open to everyone. Simple materials you probably have around the house.
Connection, creativity, FUN, and surely a few shitty first drafts!
(no perfectionism allowed)
Thurs, Aug 28  ALL THE INFO IS HERE 
It can feel challenging to keep moving into the beautiful mess and away from the perfectionism that keeps us frozen in non-action. Need a wee, gentle nudge?

Comment here, dm me on social media, or send an email, 
and I'll send you my Recovering Perfectionist pdf -
with journaling prompts, ideas for letting go of perfectionism, and more.
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Basic Art journaling supplies

3/3/2022

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Art journaling can be fun, simple, and easy to get started!

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Art journaling doesn't have to be expensive or overwhelming!

Art journaling can be a fun way to get creative and to explore your thoughts, dreams, and growth journey.  It can be a way to record your day-to-day activities, or a place to dive into words and images in a new and fun way!  Simply put, art journaling is very like keeping a written journal, it's just done visually with color, images, art, collage, and more!

I think art journaling can be accessible and super easy to get started.  Like anything, capitalism has figured out how to package everything up and sell it back to us, and to convince us that we need to spend a lot or have a big pile of supplies just to enjoy something.  I'm going to share some ideas about art journal supplies that can get you started with what you've already got at home! 

​Maybe you have a little bit of a budget to purchase some supplies, and that's great!  But if you want to explore art journaling without breaking the bank, here are some basics for you.  Look through your kids' crafty supplies, dig in your junk drawer, pull out that old scrapbooking stuff....give the artful things you already have new life in your art journal!

First things first:  you'll need some kind of journal.

This can be ANY kind of book, journal, spiral bound art paper, notebook, etc. that can be used for your artful explorations!  It's ok if it has lines.  It's ok if you already took notes from your wolverine training class in parts of it (this can actually become part of an art journal "spread" later!)  If the pages are thin, you can glue multiple pages together in order to create a thicker page to hold wet media like watercolors or collage.  There are ways to make ANYTHING work! 
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​If you have the ability to purchase one, this is my very favorite journal to work in. I have multiples of these in various sizes. The paper is thick and the spiral binding means that even if the pages get built up with layers, it still lays relatively flat.  My go-to for ordering these is Blick Art Materials.
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​Got something like this laying around?  (or maybe 37 of them, all with only 2 pages written on?  just me???)  Any basic journal will work, with or without lines.  I often find these types of journals for a buck or two while thrifting.
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Create an "altered book"!  Use an old, outdated book and paint, collage and art right on top of the existing pages and text!  This image is from Mixed Media Club and you can read more about altered books here.
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A plain, old fashioned composition book will work too!  These are often cheap (especially around back-to-school time), and readily available.  Yes, there are lines, but you are going to be gluing, painting, and art'ing right on top of them!!

The fun stuff:  art-y supplies!!

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Firstly - this category can feel overwhelming because there is SO MUCH fun stuff we could work with!! Remember that you DO NOT NEED ALL these things! But you may have more than you think just by poking around your house.  

Many people who participate in my Seeds of Connection groups do so with just a very basic notebook or paper + colored pencils or markers. It's ok to keep it simple, and dive right into the fun of art journaling!
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The very basics:
* scissors
* glue, tape or glue stick
* pens that you like to write with (gel pens, black Sharpie, your favorite Bic, any of these will work, just something that writes smoothly and makes you happy!)
* colorful art medium of some kind: markers, crayons, colored pencils, pastels, paint, watercolors, or anything else that you enjoy working with

Other supplies that can be fun (and are completely optional):
* stamps & ink
* stickers
* ribbon or string
* Mod Podge or matte medium
* washi tape
* decorative papers (like for scrapbooking or origami)
* stencils

Household supplies/items that can also be fun (and optional!):
* bubble wrap
* old magazines
* collage-able things like: junk mail, old photos, greeting cards, images printed from online or cut out of old books
* items for making marks/prints: comb, old toothbrush, mesh wrap from fruit/veggies, cardboard tube, eraser on a new pencil, plastic wrap, corks

Optional, but FUN!  Oracle or Tarot cards

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In my personal work with an art journal, I've found that using tarot or oracle cards can be a really fun way to take deep dives into a variety of topics.  In my Seeds of Connection groups, we pull a card from one of my many decks each week and we discuss the theme of that card and then create art based on that card/theme.  It's a really fun process that can lead to interesting and surprising discoveries!

The very short version of this method is to begin by grounding yourself with a bit of breathing or mindfulness.  Shuffle your deck and invite curiosity and discovery to join you in your art journaling process.  Pull a card at random and lay it in front of you.  Take a good, long look.  What do you notice about the artwork?  What are the initial thoughts or feelings that come for you when you see this card?  What does the theme or subject of the card mean to you?  Take a few minutes to journal some of your thoughts if you want to, and then move into art'ing using this theme as your guide. 

​It's not about re-creating the art from the card (although that may happen), but about exploring the theme and "following the breadcrumbs" of what wants to be created from your thoughts, feelings, and associations with this card.

All about art journaling - some resources

Learn more and get ideas for what art journaling can be!  Take a look through some of these links.  But remember:  we are start somewhere!  Don't get overwhelmed.  Art journaling really just starts with drawing, painting, writing, or gluing something into your journal, it doesn't have to be fancy.  Your skills, satisfaction, and creativity will GROW with every page you create and every mark you make!
  • What is an art journal?​
  • Art Journaling 101
  • How to Start an Art Journal
  • How to Combine Drawing and Writing into Deeply Personal Art Journals

Some of my favorite resources for art journaling supplies & ideas

Remember!  You don't NEED to purchase lots of stuff, and don't get too bogged down in endless scrolling rather than actual art journaling.  But here are some links to folks I have purchased from or who I follow and regularly learn from.
  • Stencil Girl - for RAD artist-designed stencils
  • The Bricolage Factory - for awesome ephemera packs and lots of other fun arty things!  Follow her on IG for shop updates (her goodies sell out FAST!): @ricki_ticki_tavy
  • A Work of Heart Studio - for fun supplies and stencils. Follow her on IG for lots of fun art journaling (and other artful) ideas: @aworkofheartstudio
  • Orange Spiral Arts on IG
  • Shemi Dixon on IG
  • For lovely ways of stepping into creativity and mindfulness:  embody.create.heal on IG
  • My very favorite not-big-box retailer for art supplies is Blick Art Materials.  If you're in/near Seattle, visit their store in the Captiol Hill neighborhood!
  • If you're in/near Seattle, be sure to check out Seattle ReCreative - a non-profit, 2nd hand art supply store and community art center.

Got any great tips for art journaling on a budget?
What are your favorite supplies to work with?

Share in the comments!!

If you are a small biz seller of art journaling supplies, ephemera, or fun artful goodies, please get in touch with a link to your site (or post a comment here), I'd love to add you as a resource here!  If you have a YouTube channel or art journaling based Instagram, please hook us up with those links as well.
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